So i know I've been slacka lackin' on my blogging, BUT i swear i have logical excuses.
Earlier today my Michael [my hubby] and I went to a "beach bash" event for his work and the second we got there i was tired to the point where i felt like i could just pass out and i didn't feel good - and i figured, since he went to hangout with some peeps from work, and I'm wayy too tired to be dealing with loud and drunk Marines who are just talking shit to each other all night, i figured id come home and relax, +blog.
The past few months have been extremely busy for us, we packed up our entire old house, had to house hunt in a city about an hour away, took a trip to texas for my dads wedding, adopted a cat [who had to unexpectedly have surgery within days of us bringing her home], our boxer cash also had an unexpected emergency surgery], closed on our new house [we're now first time home owners - yay!], moved, had to get settled in, and were still not done but at least things are starting to somewhat mellow out. Then were back at it again cause we've got two more weddings to go to this year that are both out of town, as well as having our family visit us for the first time! [in almost three years]. So its pretty safe to say its been hard finding the time to blog.
So like i said before we adopted another cat! So our family grew by one. Orrrr shall i say two!
Michael and I have been trying so hard for our rainbow baby for about 4 months and on June 22nd [exactly 4 months since Levi was born] we found out we we're expecting again!
Its really hard to realize that I'm pregnant again, its a really odd feeling. But with me being tired all the time and getting big cravings, its slowly hitting me. And once we go to our first ultrasound appointment I'm sure ill be golden!
Something very unique and beautiful happened the day i found out i was pregnant. A few minutes after seeing my positive test and then sitting on the toilet seat with my hands over my mouth and me having to keep rechecking the results on the box to make sure i was matching everything up correctly cause i couldn't believe what i was seeing, i went outside and sat down. As soon as i got outside a huge butterfly came over by me and was flying alll around me the entire time i was out there, which was for quite awhile cause i was such in awe of what i was seeing. It flew all around me, landed near me, sometimes got so close i could feel its wings on me, and all of a sudden this big wind of emotion came over me and i started crying but at the same time felt such a great amount of peace. I knew right then and there my little boy was with me, i could feel him there. I had so much happiness in me knowing for one- i was finally pregnant, and two- Levi made sure to show me a sign in the most beautiful way that he was okay with that and wanted to let me know it was okay, he was there with me when i was enjoying those moments of great news, and most of all - he's always going to be there for me, his daddy, and his brand new baby brother or sister. I all of a sudden felt as if it didn't feel that long ago that i lost him because of how much he was there at that moment. My husband typically doesn't believe in things like this but when i shared the story with him i could see the "wow" in his eyes and he even made a little comment as if he was talking to him, he knew he was there. Ill forever and ever be grateful for that moment, especially it being that exact time. Ive got this beautiful bundle of life growing inside of me, but at the same time i miss my Levi so terribly much, he knew i needed some sort of sign from him and he couldn't have made it any more perfect, and I'm thankful for that.
Im so glad we'll be starting this new journey in our new HOME.
as well as sharing this journey with all of you <3
-anjhel s.s.
